i miss camp so muchie lol i miss my friends. lol i was reading the bible again like yesterday. i remembered dis verse. 1 CORINTHIANS 13 4-8

LOVE IS PATIENT. LOVE IS KIND. IT DOES NOT WANT WHAT BELONGS TO OTHERS. IT DOES NOT BRAG. IT IS NOT PROUD. IT IS NOT RUDE. IT DOES NOT LOOK OUT FOR ITS OWN INTERESTS. IT DOES NOT EASILY BECOME ANGRY. IT DOES NOT KEEP TRACK OF OTHER PEOPLE'S WRONGS. LOVE IS NOT HAPPY WITH EVIL. BUT IT IS FULL OF JOY WEN THE TRUTH IS SPOKEN. IT ALWAYS PROTECTS. IT ALWAYS TRUST. IT ALWAYS HOPES. IT NEVER GIVES UP. LOVE NEVER FAILS.

I believe dat Jesus dies for my sins, and dat i am loved. but like i noe i like her n i noe she hates me or dislikes me but like now im like giving up i guess but like i want her to forgive me cuz i noe i pissed her. so like at least i want us to be friends again. so im srry dat i've pissed u off (lena) but i noe she dun look at my xanga but those who noe her can tell her dis whole entry

man i miss camp n lena i mean like i lik her but she dun like me, i mean like y dun grls like me? y do grls hate me like u noe ? i mean i spend dis whole time like mins just to write notes to her n thinking about wat to write n stf like spend dat wholre time for shytttt i mean does she hate me? does she like me? i mean she ripps my notes n throw dem away but like she lied about dis catherine said she read it den she threw it aways n she said i dun like him bac so i guess she hates me like yesterday i was iming her shes likk i dun like u so im like ok, do u hate me? den she signs off i mean like wtf, did God plan dis to happen? i mean like did he wan me to feel the pain n suffering of him dying on the cross related to dis but more painer den dis but like did he planned dis to happen like does he want me to build a greater relationship wif him more den now den like more grls would come to u n like u i mean, like i lena so awesomely like today i could've died cuz like i was thikning about her doing laundrary n like i was crossing the streets n like der was car coming n i saw lena's vision like across the streets i was walking to her n the car honked twice n i kept walking den honked the 3rd time den i was like whoa car ahhh jummped bac n like wen the car pasted me like she left or faded, so if ikept thinking about her would i have died? i mean does he want me to experience dis pain ? like does dis happen to everyone or just me n like im always the nobody in skoool but camp im like kooll n stf but i am the one who is left behind in skool im neva kool in skool im always Z the LOZER u noe so like i mean am i dat ugly? am i ugly at all? how am i unique in m ways? do grls like me in my unique ways? like i noe i have too treat my sisters wif respect n like didnt i treat lena wif respect i only liked her u noe like i mean do grls LIKE me not in a friend way, like i dun belong in skool i mean like anita, jasmine, jenny, lesley, and the other counselours think im a good guy, sweet, and nice i mean like is dat y grls dun like me im nice like do grls like mean guys or like bad guys like bad boys u noe anita said im just in the process of God molding me is dis true? i mean like i like lena cuz of her personality, for who she is, like her smile always makes me happy, n stf like she everything a guys wants, to me she is i mean is God making me grow into a true man? Into a more believer of God n believing in his ways? like HE did to Jasmine or Anita or Eugene or all the Staffs n Counselours like is God making me suffer this pain or does he want me to move on or does he want me to try harder? Is he making me more like these role models? To believe him more n more in his ways?